I wonder how many of us really live in that freedom? How many of us truly believe the beauty and boldness of that statement? Do we allow our lives to be a manifestation of those words? A truth hidden by a melody, the reality is most of us would sing these words. We would worship the Father by repeating something we hear or something we see, but most of us don't really believe that. The truth is most of us live captive, burdened and in bondage to the things that He has specifically called us apart from. We allow those things to run our lives, and ruin our joy for the Lord. I think Christianity has gotten so far from those words that it's hard for me to even fathom a body of believers truly passionate, truly unhindered to whole-heartedly serve Him. We are so consumed by the world, by our desires, and even our fears that we have let that take away from complete captivity that He allows us to no longer be enslaved to. It is not only a beautiful picture that those lyrics create, but a powerful one. An image of not just believers, but of children breaking free. Children breaking free from the constraints that once controlled them and running directly into the protection of their Father's arms. Arms that are outstretched and waiting, arms that desperately seek to enclose His children. Arms that were bled and beaten so that we wouldn't have to be, so that we would be free and blameless. Yet, His heart is breaking. Though he did this, though he was bruised and battered and killed for a freedom that we didn't deserve, we do not accept it. We do not allow ourselves to live in liberty, we continue to be enslaved to the world. And I wish more people got this, but that BREAKS his heart. Could you imagine as a Father dying in order to give your child the gift of freedom and then your child just openly denying that. Of them saying that something else is more important than what your crafted them to passionately pursue. For them to reject that freedom, how could your heart not break? And that is only one child, that is only one of your children openly defying you. How much more hurt must our Father feel for the millions who turn away, who chose to live in captivity when He provided for us a way out of that? It breaks my heart, because I know that i've done it. I know i've lived in bondage to sin and to idols, to things of the world, and in return i've missed out on a lot of the freedom that He gives. But no more, as his heart beats, my heart breaks to know the hurt i've caused. To know that I have not just rejected His freedom, but that I have defied a King and a gift that I do not deserve.
Other than this thought, this burden that I have been mulling over, today has been a wonderful day. I ran today, and did a few other things and then played basketball tonight. I had a great and much needed conversation with Ashley tonight and hopefully i'll get clarity pretty soon. I think i still need the advice from a few others first though.
my prayer request tonight is for my friend chelsea, she is having surgery on her foot tomorrow and prayers are much needed for her and she'll be getting mine for sure. goodnight everyone, sweet dreams!!!
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