february nineteenthish..

yesterday i spent the entirety of the day laying in bed, unable to do much of anything. finally around twoish, i took a shower, and then went to caroline's house. where she, timmy, and i watched the svu marathon from seven until probably twelve and then we played rummy. it was fun, but i was also exhausted just from feeling poorly.

my big prayer for yesterday was mrs. kathy. she left yesterday to go to liberia for ten days with a medical missions team. and as i was in prayer for her throughout the day, i felt like the Lord was dealing with me on being comfortable. i'd like to say i'd jump at the chance to go to Liberia, but the truth is, though i'd probably go, i'd be terrified. but, that isn't what the Lord calls us to be. What do we have to fear, what can man do to us? What awaits us if far better than what we have already, so even the worst someone can do to us here will still result in the best for us. I think the Lord is just slowly working on the fact that I need to let go of some of the comfort and control that I cling to and just completely allow Him to take that fear away and replace it with courage.