january thirtieth...

so, i've changed the blog layout around a little...i'm still getting everything set up so just bear with me. today's been pretty good for the most part. unfortunately, my phone died last night and i was staying at a friends house so my alarm did not go off for church this morning. which made me slightly upset, but it's okay. i was able to use that time to come back to my room and do some reading. i realized a really big thing today, something that i've struggled with my entire life. it's okay to need help sometimes. to admit that you can't do everything on your own. believe me this is something i've always thought i'd mastered, being independent and taking care of things myself. but the truth is, and i was very much forced to confront this today, i do need people. I don't say that alot, because deep down i don't think i truly allow myself to believe it. i'm realizing that asking for help doesn't make you weak, it's what empowers us to be strong. in fact, the Bible tells us this in 2nd Corinthians 12:9,

"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."

That's pretty interesting to think about and it really hit me hard today. That i shouldn't run from weakness or avoid it, because in that the Lord becomes stronger and He provides. He has placed people in our lives that we can trust, that we can count on and that we can rely on and He wants us to not only help others, but also allow others to help us.

But as far as good things about today;

1. team united Bible study- once every month all the athletes come together and we have a night of worship and a guest speaker and it's just a really fun time of fellowship and growth!

2. the weather...it was absolutely fantastic today. Everything was so beautiful and i'm definitely getting spring fever after these past few days of warmer weather.

3. i got to talk to ashley tonight and she asked me to be her backstage mom for miss.pca, and i can't wait. she's going to do wonderful and i can't wait to be a small part of that. she's amazing and i love her so much!

4. this one's huge and brought so much joy to my heart today, at a time when i really needed to hear it. my brother told me he prayed today for the first time in four years. an actual prayer, just him talking to God. He's growing so much, and i'm so grateful that the Lord is revealing things to him and changing his heart.

5. i also cleaned again today, which is good. i'm getting in the habit of that.

prayer request for me: these are the five words i need most right now: strength, patience, discernment, contentment, and peace.